Lovelyrainyemo's Journals

I HEARD A FAG SAY THAT ONCE

Yep idk what this is suppose to say but I felt like posting one. I'm gonna start a Zombie Defense League in school. It's gonna take a lot of work (especially since it's a catholic school and I like vampires more) but I sure it's just gonna be a title for me and my friends. We are like the stoners in the school (without the drugs haha). We have me, Dion, Maggie, Devon (I love her!), Zena, Kaitlyn, Tap, Julia, Lauren, and Sangee. Of course Maggie, Tap, Julia, Lauren, and Sangee don't belong with the rest of us. AND we have the friends that skip out on recess to help out out the music/religious guidance teacher with whatever they do. Only 3 of my "stoner" friends help out. Sarah, Amanda (surpisingly she is a cheerleader. ICK!!!!!), and Michelle. Hey maybe we can be Emo Rangers! Go Go Emo Rangers!!!! This journal really doesn't mean anything at all but I'm bored and want to talk about my friends and school. I can't wait for high school...

Check out these sugar cookies !!!!!!!!!! (if you know what I mean)

I've decide to write what happens during recess and lunch: Dion comes running out and say "so yesterday sister (a nun) said she wasn't gonna come to our school dance because we were being loud. Everyone is think 'yes' but Ryan has to go and say 'well good' and sister says 'oh baby' " That's really awkward!!!!!!! Oh baby ewww a nun saying that. Dion was making fun of sister and says (pretending to be her) "oh check out these sugar cookies! And then you see the wind blow by and her sugar cookies blow away b/c they are powder Today was really cold (and we still had recess) and I was hanging all over Dion (we are just friends but you know you just need a guy you can hang all over without them worrying about you liking them and visa virsa) he was really warm!!!!!!! He had his phone that was like a mp3 player and he had my chemical romance songs on there and he hide his phone in his pants. Dion said I have gerard in my pants...... I was jealous = P Okay at lunch mr c ( our vice p) was eating cream ewwwwww Sarah!!!!! I can't wait for the dance!!!!!! Haha you will get part 7 and 8 Monday maybe even part 9 too!!!! Frey and kyo are sexy boys! Frey 4eva! I'm kicking chris' fine white as sour cream ass at the dance! How dare he make fun of Devon! I told him to stop making fun of her but he won't , I know him!!!! Wroble almost just almost showed me his dick today in math!!! He was going to but sal had to start checking wroble out. Gah!!!! LOL Ryan said he was 8inches (dick size) and that an average sized dick was 5 inches and rachel goes I'm average! I don't think she understood........

Sex is......

in my religion book it says sex is great. Um.......what kind of message are you sending to 8th graders.

Open Arms To My Reaching Hands

You're twisting me, pulling me into to you and I forget who I am You knew what to do and I'll fell in with you Fell in with you, fell into you I kept to myself these feelings that I can't hide and I forget what to do I never thought I needed you How was I suppose to know? But know I'm gone It's been so long, who have you've been with? Words are meaning nothing at all Breathe in, breathe in Exhale and breathe I can't remember me at all That's a good thing but I'm starting to miss the thought of who I used to be when I was with you It's killing me that I knew that I could never help you You never loved me You never said goodbye I'm falling over I'm getting over I know I'm finally done with you Emotions running into me like a car crash I couldn't see Open arms to my reaching hands I hope to hold on, into you I'll turn to my little sharp things and listen to myself sing

homogeneous is NOT a smart fag? WHAT???????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I just learned what a homogeneous mixture was. When the teacher asked me what it was I said a smart fag. How Is that wrong? I am seriously disappointed about this. I want a cupcake! My friend who shall not be named met this guy and he's a skater so I go are you gonna ride his half pipe? And she says he can go threw my tunnel! LOL our lunch convos are actually worst than this! We just a bunch of 13 year old pervs.

things I hate (at the moment)

1. When a girl flat as a surf board starts complaining about her bra! Hello stop bitchin' about it and wear an effin' undershirt for your boobless self. Ugh it like when you pass an A cup then talk 2 me but before that hell no. 2. When a guy that you don't hang out with or even exchange a simple hello everyday comes up 2 you and asks "wanna fuck?" I know he was joking and shit but still. 3. When my friend has a bf and is totally obsessed. This kid isn't even that hot or hot at all. Okay so we both agree he has the biggest dick but that's not the point. He's a pussy that bitches about everything. 4. That twilight comes out the day I have a dance 4 skool. The dances are 7 to 9:30. Maybe I can leave the dance at 9 and catch the movie at 9:30 or 10? 5. That if you say fag on buzznet ppl attack you like a fat ass trying to get to a candy bar. FAG FAGGETY FAG GAAAAAY. Oh and now it wrong to call sum1 gay when they're not. 6. That this kid johnny thinks it's funny to pretend to cut himself with a ruler. I start yelling at him "you think it's funny that people kill themselves" and I look like the bitch cause he got in trouble. Well screw all the people that call me an emo cutter and an emo nigga - I hate that-. 7. That people call my chem gay. And mean it. Song summinG up my mood: tired and uninspired by my American heart ( check the song out)

since I can't upload...........

check out family force 5 they are fucking amazing

GROUNDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M GROUNDED LET US SEE HOW LONG THIS LASTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Story: Opposites

CHAPTER 1: THE BREAKDOWN

''Do you love me?'' Amy said to her anti-self in the mirror.

''Well do you love me?'' Aubrey said, wanting to break out.

Aubrey was Amy's anti-self. Amy was a girl were Aubrey was a boy. Amy had long brown hair were Aubrey had short black. Amy had pale green eyes were Aubrey had piercing blue ones. They were total opposites. Amy was fun-loving, out going, and cheerful. Aubrey was violent, angry, and depressed. How could they love each other? Amy thought of love as a way of escaping your happy life into a happier one. Aubrey thought of love as a sick way of God making you suffer. How could they be together? Amy was on one side of the mirror and Aubrey the other. Plus, Amy was human.........Aubrey was a demon.

''Do you love me?'' Amy said while looking into the eyes of her anti-self.

''Well do you love me?'' Aubrey said, wanting to break out from his glass prison.

Amy went to go sit on her bed, that was right across from her mirror, and said ''It's not right for me to get to close to you.''

''Why can't you just say what you mean?'' Aubrey said angrily. His blue eyes glowed red turning them a sickly purple.

Amy flinched. Even though she knew he couldn't hurt her, his words were just as powerful.

''Answer me!'' Aubrey yelled.

''Do you want me to tell you?'' Amy said nervously.

Aubrey put his hands on the mirror, inviting her to do the same.Amy got up and did. The love that flowed out of Amy, through the mirror, and to Aubrey was to much to take.

''Why can't you say that?'' Aubrey spat.

''You first!'' Amy rubbed her hand together in a atempt to get the burning feeling out.

Silence. They look into each others eyes, looked into each others worlds, and realized it could never be. Aubrey was a demon. Brought to hell by the sins of his human life. Amy had a human life. How could he try and take it away? She need a person that could help her, listen to her, touch her. What did he need?

''I can't be with you'' Aubrey said quietly. ''No matter how much I might love you.''

Amy broke down in tears and sobbed ''I.Love.You.Also.'' She made every word into a sentence.

drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

Amy's cell phone rang. She didn't answer. What could be more important than this? Amy got up and went to the mirror. She put one hand up, like she did before, and waited for Aubrey to do the same.

''Kiss me'' Aubrey said. He knew how dangerous it was to be getting close to Amy when they already loved each other.

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

Amy's cell kept ringing.She ignored it and said ''This is so wrong.''

''Our love was meant to be wrong.'' Aubrey put his lips close to the mirror.

it gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

Amy, after a long minute, put her lips so if they were not blocked my a mirror they would be kissing.

such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply

That's when it happened. Aubrey fell out of the mirror and fell on top of Amy. Aubrey felt warm against Amy's body. They continued to kiss each other passionately. Did they not realize that they coud touch each other? Or did they not care?

Aubrey broke off the kiss and cussed ''Dammit. Fuckin' MIRROR!'' He looked at Amy and said ''A kiss? Are you serious? How fairytale can you get?''

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

Amy sighed. If they were calling this much it is probably important.She got up, with Aubrey following her every move, and got the phone.

''Hello''

''Amy! It's me Zoe'' Zoe was her best friend and, sadly, Olly's,her ex-boyfriend, sister.

''Yeah, what's up?'' Amy giggled as Aubrey lick the side of the neck.

''Olly's dead!''

Amy froze.

'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

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The lyrics that are not in bold are from the song Let Go by Frou Frou. There will be more to this story but the chapters might be a little short.

P.S There might be make-out/sex scenes in this story so if you find that offensive I AM TELLING YOU NOW to stop reading.

I think he has got some sick spell on me

okay so there is this guy named andrew and I'm totally in love with him and every time I'm close to getting over him he pulls me back in. I guess in reality I am a sucker for a sweet talker. And now a poem by me about andrew. I was just thinking about you because you are always on my mind How many times have I heard that line You say you care about me but you only see me as I used to be I love you a thousand times I love you even though it isn't fair All the times you lied to me were your sweet words lies too I'll take those words and hope you're waiting for me For just a moment I felt you and I get ripped apart ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It is very short but whatever